Many of you are aware, Robert and I set out on a journey yesterday. This journey was very out of character for me! It put me in a place of exposure, a place I wasn’t sure I was ready to be. Yes, you know we auditioned for The Biggest Loser! Robert and I woke up yesterday morning around 3:00 and headed to Atlanta where we stood in line for over 5 hours in the heat and humidity. The line for the audition wrapped a city block, which in Atlanta is gigantic! While we were waiting for hours on end we were able to talk with individuals around us, hear their stories, and simply people watch. The people watching was so much fun, LOL! I realized while standing in line that no matter how rough our past 2 years have been with our up and down struggles there were people out there who had worse struggles!
I know and believe there was a reason we went to Atlanta. There were too many details which had to fall right into place. Then when we were praying and seeking God the hardest about if we needed to go or not, we received a phone call! The phone call came from California and it was the producers of the show asking us to attend auditions! Looking around at all the people in line, I began to wonder if all of this was for nothing BUT then I reminded myself that God had opened a door for us and only He could close it. Now, looking back, I wonder why did God open the door for us, what is He trying to teach us?
Finally after FIVE long hours in the sun and heat we made it to our interview! Our interview with ten other individuals, WHAT?!?!?!?! Surely this had to be a mistake, nope, no mistake! I found myself in a daze, here we had stood in line all this time to have an interview with The Biggest Loser and we had to share our time with ten other people! The biggest shocker was we only had seventy seconds to tell our story! Seriously! Seventy seconds is not enough time and was not enough time to tell our story, to show our personality and to persuade them we were the next Biggest Loser! So, after sitting down, hearing others stories, it was time to share my story. What should I say, what would I say, what did I say?!? I simply told the truth, the simple truth! This was my story, my shortened story (I had more to tell but in less a minute what all can you say):
I have been overweight my entire life. I actually weigh now what I weighed as a freshman in high school. All of this extra weight leads to one thing in school and that is what I seemed to get a lot. From being slapped in the face every afternoon on the bus , to always being picked on by students and teachers — much of it was hidden and not visible to everyone. Many times I felt as though I was invisible and worth very little. Now, I find myself teaching in the county and school district I escaped from after graduation, the one I swore I would never come back to. I want to be a role model for the students I teach, after all I teach in the unhealthiest county in Florida. I want to show these little ones I teach, that you can overcome your circumstances of growing up in a low income community and an unhealthy community and be SO much more!
I wondered from the time I left the interview room if I said enough BUT I mean I only had a few seconds to talk — actually less than the seventy seconds, I was told I would have. I pondered if my story of wanting to give back was enough! Robert had assured me it had to be! He said I was the only one who even mentioned giving back — everyone else simply mentioned their struggles!
So when I went to bed at 1:00 A.M. this morning, waiting on a phone call back from the producers, to which I am still waiting on (we were told they would be making call backs between Saturday and Monday) I felt a peace that no matter what happens I placed myself out there. I did something, I normally wouldn’t do — I made myself vulnerable! I did what I knew I was supposed to do — I went through the door God opened for me.
But to make sure I understood He was pleased with me and I did what I was supposed to do, this morning – early, very early – I heard these words directly from God, ” I Am Proud of You!“
Robert and I. Our second anniversary picture.