My Journey to You Part 3

Hopefully I have not lost everyone on my journey. If you are thinking it took me a long time to get to Robert, imagine how I felt! After I began to have realization of the man God had purposed for me, I felt as though it was taking forever to find him. I kept praying, seeking God for guidance along my journey and I continued my activity in the Singled out by Grace Singles Ministry almost every night.

Being a member of a very active singles ministry meant I was interacting with many individuals on a daily basis pretty much. Our group would have discussions and we all became friends encouraging each other as we all took this journey as single Christian adults together. The interactions I had included men and women. One specific man I found myself interacting with a little more every week with one certain individual, but at the time I did not connect the dots.

Summer came and summer went, I was still looking for the man God had for me, the one He had promised to me. I really questioned why he had not come yet, I wondered what I had done wrong, what I was not doing right. My mind was spinning, and being the type of person I am my brain always kept working overtime reviewing everything from the previous three to four months. Still, I could not figure out why God had not helped me find the man He promised me. Then one night in October, on the Florida / Georgia game night — GO GATORS!!!! — I visited my grandma’s church for their annual sing (the irony in all of this we currently are attending this EXACT SAME church) and I heard a song. The song I heard put everything in my life and all the events which had happened to me over the course of the last year and a half in perspective. Being a singer, I had heard this specific song many times but never had I applied it to my life.

I have discovered many times it is easy to sing and preach the word we know others need to hear but when it comes to us listening and actually hearing the message in the words we sing or speak, it is hard to deal with these words. This is what had happened to me, it was easy for me to sing the words, encourage others but for me it was hard for me to listen to the words I sang and gain encouragement from it that is why it was so important for me to hear the song, “Lay My Issac Down” and listen to the words. The night I visited my grandma’s church I actually heard and understood the message in the song — I realized I had to be willing to give to God all the dreams and hopes I had for myself so I could do the will of God. I had to be like Abraham when he was willing to sacrifice his promised son to show God he trusted Him. I, too, had to be willing to give all of my trust to God and rely on Him and His timing, even if that meant giving up on the promise and dream of having a husband and children. At that moment I knew what I had to do, I had to make a sacrifice and give it all to God and that is exactly what I did. That was a Saturday… the following Tuesday, election day 2012, I bet you cannot guess what happened…

On Election Day 2012 I received a comment on a post I had made on Facebook. You are now saying so what?!? Well, this comment came from someone in Singled Out by Grace, this comment came from Robert D. Sharpe! When I read this comment, instantly I heard these words, I know they came from no one else but God, “That is the one!” When I heard these words I instantly reviewed in my head all of the comments made to me along the way on how I would know my future husband was the correct man God had for me. Oh my gosh! Robert met all of these “requirements”!!!!!!! The next few days and weeks I prayed and sought God like never before. Then one Friday night I saw a rather sad looking post from Robert and I simply sent him a message asking if he was okay.

From that Friday until today, we have talked to each other every single day – we have not missed a single day in over 2 years! We have developed a love and a friendship that is far above what I had ever imagined possible! I can say with pure confidence I have married my best friend and we become better friends as the days go by no matter what trials we seem to face — all because we know where I relationship began, in the palms of God!

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My Journey to You part 2

Last night I began to tell you about the journey I took to find my “Sharpe”. My journey until 2012 was one which had brought me many challenges, accomplishments, love and heart break. I felt as though I had been destined to be single my entire life. Then one evening while out with friends I received a text message which would help shape my journey and show me my plight of ups and downs had been for a reason and my answer was in sight. The text message I received simply said something like, “Call me when you get a chance, I need to talk to you.”
Once I was back at my car and was able to return the phone call to my friend and singles ministry leader. I really was not sure what she was needing to talk with me about, I knew she probably was going to offer me some encouragement from a few issues I had been dealing with and to discuss possibly helping with a discussion session while she was going on vacation but to my surprise what she was wanting to talk to me about or should I tell me put my entire world spinning. Dana, started to tell me things about the man God was preparing for me. At the time she nor I knew it was Robert, all she knew was God was preparing a man for me which led a God centered life, was Southern, educated and many other details. Dana and I talked for a long time that evening discussing not only plans God had for me but also discussing the struggle I had of overcoming the rejection of past relationships. We ended the conversation with a prayer and this prayer was one which provided me encouragement and strength for the days a head because little did I know the next afternoon I would receive the shock of my life and realize just how much God loved me and had protected me.
There is nothing like understanding God’s plan for you after months of praying, asking why and trying to understand exactly what God has purposed and planned for you then scanning through the local news station during lunch and seeing a news article about the person who broke your heart! Trust me it was not a good article, the article was one which revealed instantly why God had allowed my heart to be broken, God was protecting me from a greater hurt and even what I believe would consider a form of destruction, socially and professionally. When I saw the news article I instantly heard, “That’s why!” – God. I realized instantly I had to thank God for the hedge He had placed around me, a hedge of protection which came by the way of a broken heart and would lead me to find the one whom He had made me for. I realized the conversation I had the night before simply prepared me for the news I saw and gave me hope for the future, knowing I was prepared for the future God had for me and I was ready to focus on finding the person God had just for me! Little did I know this would take another six months, much soul searching and being willing to sacrifice my future in order to do God’s will.

Join me tomorrow as I continue on my journey to Robert.

My Journey To You

Over the past year I have shared with you the journey Robert and I have taken since we have been married. I have shared our ups and our downs, our happiness and our fears. Today, I want to share with you – on the two year anniversary of Robert walking into church to surprise me – my journey to Robert.
My journey to find my “Sharpe” began along time ago when I decided to not get married as an 18 year old girl straight out of high school but decided to attend college to educate myself and become one of the first college graduates in my family. Thankfully, I was able to earn my Bachelor’s degree in Elementary Education, I earned a double Master’s degree in Education, I even was able to work on a PhD (I am 4 or 5 classes from being finished). Not only did I work on my education but I also traveled around the world and across America. Was this when my journey led me to Robert? No, unfortunately this was not the end of my journey to Robert, I had to face obstacles and heartbreak along the way. The greatest struggle I faced happened a year after a heartbreak and only months before my journey did lead me to Robert. The following is my journey in words, because of space I have left some details out but what I have placed here will let you see my journey was one God placed in motion way before I knew what He was doing.

2011
There is nothing like giving a spelling test and having a student embarrass you in the middle of the test by blurting out a few words which should have never been blurted out. That is what I thought, then one day in 2011 (I had to verify this time span on Facebook because now this day seems like an eternity ago) not only did a student blurt out embarrassing words the student also wrote me a note which used the same exact words. Some of you know exactly what these words were, don’t you? While others of you are asking, “what in the world are you talking about?” My journey to Robert, not that I realized it at the time, actually began seriously in 2011. I realize now in 2011 I was able to develop a definition of what type of man I wanted God to bring me. This is the year I had a student announce to me her father was single. Not only did she announce this to me and my class of fourth graders but she managed to play matchmaker in her quest to make herself feel complete, make her teacher happy and in some way help restore her father who she knew deep down she was losing. I, feeling sorry for this student and her story went along with her plot, I thought what would one date hurt. Well, just like you know one date can easily lead to another, emotions start to build and dreams start to form. This happened to me while all along I was receiving clues and messages from God to direct me away from this nightmare which was about to happen. I cannot tell you how many times in a period of 4 months I heard God tell me, “This is really the type of person you want to be with?” I even had friends warning me about the person I was hanging around but I was always able to reason it away. There always seemed to be an excuse, I slowly began to accept things which I had never accepted in my life. But, because I was wanting this as my life and I thought I was in love I continued in this relationship a fourth grader had arranged. Well, thankfully God knew best and He intervened in the relationship which ended with me heartbroken, alone and questioning God as to why this was happening to me. I kept asking Him, didn’t I deserve to be happy, why was I the one which always sacrificed my life for others and still ended up unhappy? All along I received no answer, so I thought.
Over the next year this person which broke my heart always kept in touch with me, he seemed to be able to bring a smile to my face while dashing my dreams at the same time. He was truly playing me and I in my heartbroken self didn’t see it, all I could see was this person and family I thought I was supposed to have. Thankfully, during this year God brought me to an online ministry for single individuals. At the time I thought this would be tool to help me become stronger, have bible study and give me a support group to go to when I needed support. I did not realize it would be such a huge tool in my life. May 2012, the ministry leader, Dana (who is now a very close friend) called me because I was still struggling with this relationship which ended a year prior, she also had other things to discuss with me. The things she needed to discuss with me would start to change my life forever. Little did I know the prayer we prayed that evening, the topics we discussed would bring me strength I would need over the next few days, and ultimately help lead me to Robert and help lead Robert to me.

Join me tomorrow for the rest of my journey to Robert….